Wednesday, August 13, 2008

The Rollercoaster Life of Faith

This week, and today in particular, has been an emotional rollercoaster as we alternate between exhilaration and despair, exhilaration at God’s provision… and despair at all the additional work & expenses associated with moving and going back to Africa, things that just seem to multiply as the time for departure approaches! Welcome to our life of living by faith! This isn’t pie-in-the-sky living by faith. It’s where-the-rubber-meets-the-road living by faith.

Ask anyone who lives like this and they’ll tell you that it’s usually not smooth sailing with the calm, nonchalant assurance that God will provide. It’s more like walking along the edge of a cliff, with a yawning chasm ready to take advantage of your slightest misstep on one side, and God’s sustaining hand on the other. His hand will catch you if you slip and fall, but will not always prevent you from falling in the first place. After all, without the chasm and the fall, you will not appreciate His helping hand! And falling and being caught makes a far better story than merely being prevented from slipping in the first place, doesn’t it?

Today, first of all, we stood amazed at God’s hand of provision. Two people contacted us: one to increase her level of support significantly, and the other to join us in ministry for the first time. This leaves us now only $195/month short of our budget. Quite a change from only two days ago! Praise God for that!

Then we saw the chasm on the other side: the list of expenses still before us for visa applications, for equipment and supplies, for car repairs, for cleaning, for moving, for shipping, and more. Yikes! Our hearts and experience tell us that God will bring it all together, probably right at the very last minute. Our heads and emotions tell us that there is no possible way it will ever happen in time. Isn’t this an exciting way to live?!!!

Haha, actually it is! But I’m too tired right now to care. It’s late and I’m exhausted, so I’d better go to bed and get some sleep. Things will no doubt look much better in the morning :) Good night!

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